The urge to injure myself is not getting any better, only worse. All I hear from my mom is how much I screw up. Everyday is awful, I’m terrified to go to school cause I’ll mess up, im afraid to go home cause my mom will just be mad at me (mad is an understatement) . I’ve pretty much lost everything cause of this urge (more of a need)  My self confidence is down the toildonor don’t even know what happened with my faith, but I really don’t care. It’s a struggle everyday not to break down. I’m alone in this world, no one cares. I can see the expression people get when I walk up to talk. I just can’t take this anymore, I need to injure.   *just to say, suicide is NOT at all a thought, just putting that out there*