I realapsed last night and it didn’t even help. With my grades slipping I feel so much pressure right now. I feel like the one thing I used to think I could do I now fail in. I used to be a straight A student and now I’m barely passing some of my classes. I can’t figure it out. Everything is just numb … and the numbness so quickly turns to pain. I just want it all to stop…
I feel the same way. I’m looking at not returning to university next year, and it’s hard to think that. I think when things like this happen, it’s hard to focus on the ‘important’ things in life when we think that others things are more important like harming or whatever else.
I’m going through this now; I’m supposed to be studying psychology and I’m spending more time playing guitar than I am on my books and school work. I guess it’s that what makes me forget everything else: when I’m studying, it’s like I can’t get away from harming or end choices or depression, but when music I can change all of that around and make it into something tangible.
You’re not alone. Don’t give up.
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I know how you feel. My grades were good, then stuff started happening and I was always distracted from important stuff. Like i am now. I’m barely passing anything. And It’s very frustrating.