First the good news, I still haven’t SI’ed since the last time that I did a month ago I think. I still don’t sleep with my tool next to me either when I do sleep.  I haven’t even thought too much about doing that to myself. The thoughts are still there but not as bad as they were a while ago.

Now for the bad news. I have given up caring about myself. Sure, I still try to help some of the people here when I some advise for them. Other than that, nothing really matters too much to me. I’m just here if that’s what you want to call it. I do the same things day in and day out. The main thoughts that I’ve been having is wanting to disappear in one way or another.