Hi I am knew on this blog and I found it beautiful that so many wonderful people are helping each other out. You all should be so proud of yourselves 🙂 I am an 18 year old girl who has had pain in my lifetime. Enough for a grown woman. I had stopped SI-ing for 11 months my longest time ever but I slipped last week and I felt so weak after almost like all my strength was gone. I promised my girl friend that I would do this thing called a butterfly project its when you draw a butterfly on yourself and as long as that butterfly is there you cannot SI (you keep drawing it on if it faids) if you do SI your butterfly dies. Her butterfly is my name and my butterfly is her name. Its so hard to promise to not SI when life seems so hard. How do I stay strong and not break my promise?