I am doing better, I still hate it, I wanna tell him… but I’m afraid to. He held me strong when I felt like I couldn’t breath, so why I can’t is a mystery.  I am going to tomorrow, I have to. If I stay locked up like I had before I will break with the slightest bend. Somehow, I will explain to him. I go for you guys for help alot, thanks, for everything. You might have saved my life a few weeks ago.