I can’t get on the Internet much right now, mainly to check email, Facebook, those things. I wanted to blog real quick while I’m somewhere with wifi…I’m really struggling. I’ve gotten through each day so far with no SI or substance abuse but it’s a struggle. I used to see self injury as the lesser or the two evils to my substance abuse but now I get it’s all unhealthy coping mechanisms and I want to be healthy. This time I’m happy to say self injuring feels like a relapse were I to do it. Before i felt I could do it instead of drinking if I HAD to but I don’t believe that anymore. I’m glad I have a fear of it, I have a big fear of relapse in everything. Not a paralyzing fear, but a health fear and I’m glad. Really struggling to do the right, healthy thing tonight.
Congratulations! I am inspired of your milestone that you have come across. Its hard alot of the times, which everyone on here can agree, but having this milestone also means you are finding yourself again and that in itself is beautiful.