I cant do this anymore. I wanted to be brave. I wanted to be strong. I didn’t want to give in. It had been a good two months. But I was weak and gave in. I cant believe I let myself get to this pont again. It feel sso calming and soothing. Yet I feel dumb that I gave in. I gave in and now im at zero again. I have been having weird mood swings lately. One min im totally fine, laughing having a great time, and the next I just want to go cry.. Everything I see thats a little sad brings teas to my eyes, yet other times I could care less. I dont understand how i became so unstable. Idk. I really do give up. I thought I was stronger than the urges. I thought I woudnt give in. But here I am again. Zero. nothing. a loser. … Alone
You’re not alone. I’m sure all of us has done that time to time. I’m sure that you had a reason for doing it. Now you just have to start again and try to learn from what you did. That’s the hard part of it all. Knowing what brought it on and then trying to learn from that.
One your not a loser two your not a zero and three you are not alone!
I no this feels like the world has come to and end andyou just feel lik there is no point but there is. I no you dont want to keep fighting and its to hard but weve all had times like these most of us still do you cant let this bring you down even lower it will get better you will vet better and you will want to look back andsay hey i didnt give up . Please dont give up
I wish you the best