So on the outside im ok. No one would know any better. But on the inside I feel torn. I dont want to feel like this. I guess torn isnt the right word. I feel….blah. Idk. I wish I knew how to really open up to my friends about how I feel. I have amazing friends. But I cant tell them I feel like this, and at the same time, if I do all I get in return is “Oh itll be ok” And its true sometimes I just need to hear that i am doing to be ok. But idk. I have to go with all these thoughts unwritten… great.