So on the outside im ok.  No one would know any better.  But on the inside I feel torn.  I dont want to feel like this.  I guess torn isnt the right word.  I feel….blah.  Idk.  I wish I knew how to really open up to my friends about how I feel.  I have amazing friends. But I cant tell them I feel like this, and at the same time, if I do all I get in return is “Oh itll be ok” And its true sometimes I just need to hear that i  am doing to be ok. But idk. I have to go with all these thoughts unwritten… great.