Ok so I’m having urges and I don’t like it. And the funny thing about it is I had a dream about SI. I think it’s funny cuz I was just talking to someone about that. But anyways this dream just brought up things I do not like. On top of that I’ve just been rely annoyed with everyone everyone is ticking me off and I just get so mad but when I usually got to that point I’d SI I don’t want to tho and I’ve been doIng good and I don’t want to let my anger and my annoyance that my family brings me to take me back to those days but omg If the keep making me mad imma have to do somethings and I just hope it’s something positive like my art iv found I like art but idk if that’ll help. I’m not really making any since but I just like to write down what I feel that’s better than what I want o do. Those urges have left me for a good two months and now when I’m dong good they wanna show up. Great. I’m not even sad Or depressed right now I’m just….well I guess I’m angry. And just overwhelmed with starting my life. One more year of bing cared for by this family this family that I hate then I’m gone. I’m ready to go but scared because once I leave I won’t have them o fall back on only because you can’t trust them and they’ll do anything to see you fAil. But anyways now I’m rambling. I know or hope I’ll be ok but if anyone who has had to go off on there own with no family support tell me if it’ll really be ok?
I’m sorry that you are having the same kind of dreams that I am. I know how it is to get anger with family. I’ve been trying to keep mine at arms length anymore. This past year was the first holiday that I spent with them in three years and I shouldn’t have done that. Once I left there, I was beyond angry at them.
Personally, I hope that you do work of your art and not SI.
Yes actually i binded with my sisshe still pisses me off but shes like my only fam thhts there for me.. we watched some movies together but my art im working on is like a vision board of my life and what goes on in my head. Maybe you should try that mahbe itll help you understand some thingsbyou dont understand. Thankk for that by the way family can be stressful and i want to leave becuz this place is no place to get better. But yeah that was my second si dream and it was jus wow becase weere just talking about it and the i had on which proves its normal. I guess. Idk but yes i will vocus on my art and keep myself away from the tool so thanks
It’s good that you have your sister. Anything that helps is great, especially when it keeps you away from your tool.
I haven’t had any dreams lately though. Maybe because I’m not sleeping like I should be. LOL.