ugh. why now? why at this time would i be thinking about hurting myself? i have an amazing boyfriend that is so respectful and loves me for me and everything is going FINE. but then i just think bout sad things, i don’t even know what sad things i just think about them… and then i get sad. and then i wanna self injure. but why. why now? i mean, aren’t i supposed to be happy? isn’t this the time i’m supposed to be happy? i hate this so much. i don’t understand why and how this can possibly occur when everything is going fine! please tell me this is normal because if it isn’t then help me. i seriously think i’m bipolar but maybe it’s me over analyzing things like i always do. and then the depression kicks in! woo. i’m totally loving life right now… sarcasm intended.