Ok So. My mother recently found out about all of my si.ing and I know it hurts her and that’s the last thing I ever wanted to do. I don’t think she understands its what I do to keep myself from actually finishing myself off, and I never find it in my heart to tell her, or anyone that. I kept all this a secret for so long and now everythings falling down on me. She thinks talking about it will make me feel better, but the truth is the more i think about things and why I do the them, the more I wanna die. or run away. I think about both of those things pretty often, I just feel as if there’s nothing left for me here. All I really want is a chance to start over, and make something better out of myself. But I’ll be stuck here for at least another 2 years, and I don’t mean to sound ungrateful, but I’m tired of this life I’m living. I need something new, or I don’t know if I’ll be able to stick things out for that long if something doesn’t give soon.