This is not who I want to be, but this is who I am. No matter what I do or don’t do, I’m me. Scars, me. Love, me. Hate, me. Pain, me. Depression, confusion, anger, strength, sadness, weakness, lonliness–me. No matter what I do I’m still me. Sometimes that’s comforting and sometimes that’s the worst thought in the world. I’m losing my footing. I know I have to be strong and keep going. But I’m tired ans I don’t want to. I know I can’t give up and I have to keep hope. But I don’t want to and I”m tired of getting hurt. I know things can get better and will change, but I don’t have the strength to make a difference. I’m sinking back down. I’m too strong to completely give in and end this, but I’m too weak to keep moving forward. I know I have to pull myself back up. I know I have to save myself. I know I’m the only one who can change this. But I’m tired of leaning on me, depending on me. I don’t want to try anymore. I don’t want to keep going, keep trying. I want to sink into the ground and stay there. But I can’t. I can’t do the one thing I want to do more than anything. I’m helpless. I’m falling behind in school and life. Which just makes it harder on myself. No matter what I lose. I’m the one who suffers, whether it’s from my own actions or someone else’s. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m exhausted
All you can do is take it one day at a time and one step at a time. I’m sure that you don’t want to hear this from me, but you do matter to the people around you. We all have our ups and downs in life. (I’m in the downs right now myself) That’s living though.
I know that you are stronger than you think you are. Just don’t give up.
I see how your always there for all of us all the time andni can see hotiring it is to feel like no one elsenis around for you and all you have i yourself, but i will do what you did for me a few weeks ago. Put alll your pain and struggles on me and i wull be here for you i will be that extra perskn to help you up. Even if uts just for the night let me tKe away som of your painand strugges like you did for me that one night. Being tild to stay strong and keep fighting can be hard to do when you only have you to lean on so lean on me when you feel yournot gonna mmkeit and ill help you carry on. (You diint say all of that but i added some stuff) you are avery good person and i hope you get through this and i hope this low point in ur life wont ruion what youve ben working hard on. Im here always.
Sorry for miss spellings.
Thank you for the comments.I appreciate it