So last night I Self Harmed.. I woke with injuries. When I do it.. it’s like I get this high. My eyes are blurry and I injure.. searching for something. I don’t really know why I did it. I’m just so confused. I want to be open, but then I feel vulnerable. But when I’m not open, I feel terrible for not keeping my mom and sister in the loop. And when they find out a week or two later, they freak out. I feel like I’m trapped in a cage. I want to escape.. but I’m scared to leave this familiar, safe-haven. I’m tired, mentally and physically, from dealing with it all. I just want this to be done.