Wow..ok so, I’m Skye Rae..yes it IS a fake name but I’m allowed to have my privacy. I’m new to the whole “Support Group Website” thing.. But I guess I could start off by telling everyone a little about myself. First of all, Hi! Lol.. Uhm.. I suffer from dillusions, anorexia and bulemia and I Self Harm…I’ve done a lot of stupid stuff I regret and some of it I’m still doing sadly.. Any questions? Ask away!
I’m suffering through anorexia, bulimia and self harm so you’re not alone. You’ll get a ton of support on this website plus it just helps to be able to get everything off your mind without holding anything back.
Welcome to the grouo thre are alot of people on here who are supportive. We all d things we regreat and we all do stupid things but we all will grow and learn and get better soome day
I think something that’s great, even though this will sound very strange but bear with me, is that our stories aren’t unique.
I’ve been on this site for over a year and I’ve began to realize that I’m not a special case, you know? I’m not a freak, a weirdo, an ’emo’. I think it’s comforting to know that my situation isn’t unique, that there are thousand more people facing the same problems just like me. It’s so comforting to know that I’m not alone, and that there IS someone who understand the emotions and feelings that seem to pop up for no reason. Like sometimes you just want to harm, other times you feel like dying, but it passes. It may seem horrible at the time, and it is, but someone else out there, somewhere, feels the same things; they face the same struggles, fight the same battles, and if we stand together we can stand strong and beat it.
I’ve been to therapy before and they make you feel like you’re the ‘odd one out’ or something, you know. Like you’re an abnormality in the world, a one-in-a-million rare case. That’s not true. Like ‘weeallhavesecrets’ said, we all do things we regret and that we’re not proud of, but we can also learn from these things and grow from them. There’s always an alternative, and there’s always a healthier option.
I think, in my opinion, that we all have these things we hold on to because we feel it’s all we have. Whether it’s injuring, or eating (overeating or undereating)or drugs, sex, whatever. We hold on to these vices and don’t want to let go because it’s something that we can fully control in our own lives, something that you can say ‘This is MINE and I’M the only one who does or doesn’t do it.’ Which seems like it’s fine, but there comes a time when you have to step back and think ‘Is this really the best option? Is this really the only way that I can find to deal with my problems?’ And yeah, it’s true; they’re problems. Everyone has them, but it’s being able to accept them and acknowledge your faults and then looking for answers and help to improve them and straighten yourself out. I’m not perfect, no one is. But I’m slowly learning that there are better alternatives to injuring or whatever.
It’s a process, you’re learning. It’s like riding a bike, or playing guitar or anything else. You’re not going to be perfect at it at first. It takes practice, it takes dedication. YOU ARE GOING TO MESS UP. It’s not then end of the world, it’s just a mistake. It’s like hitting the wrong note on guitar or falling of a bike. You don’t give up, right? You keep going, because it’s something you want to do and it’s something that has a positive outcome. So you have a bad day and slip up and injure, or you slip up and overeat/undereat. Take notice of the situation, remember for next time that there are things that are going to be hard. But you can work through it.
With support and understanding, there is help and there is hope. Sometimes finding help doesn’t mean going to see psychiatrists, psychologists, inpatient stays and stuff like that. Sometimes it can mean something as simple as working on the struggles with someone else who’s like you, and facing the struggles together. ‘Don’t carry the weight of the world.’
Sorry for the long rant, but I really feel that we can stand together and help each other through the struggles we’re all facing. It’s not the end, it’s only the beginning for each of us. We’ll persevere and pull through together.
Hope is real. Help is real. Recovery is possible.
Feel free to email/MSN me. I’ve gone through these things before, and at times I still do. I’ve found that talking with someone who is a complete stranger and non-judgmental can be helpful. They don’t know your entire story, they don’t know your family/friends and your life, so you can reveal or hold whatever details you want and still talk about things with them. I’m thankful that I’ve got the chance to meet some excellent people and friends through this support group.
Hope. Help. Recovery.
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