ok so. i’m proud to say i haven’t harmed in quite a while now, about a month actually! i feel as if that chapter of my life has finally ended, hopefully. it’s really such a relief, not having to worry about keeping such a big secret from everyone all the time. i won’t say i don’t get the urge to, because i think it’s something that stays with you for a long, long time, but it’s such a good feeling to be strong enough not to give into it. and i know all of you have that inside of yourselves as well! however, i have traded in the s.i. for a new addiction. you can’t tell by looking at my body but i know its damaging me internally, which is even scarier to me. you know, because i can’t see the damage being done. i don’t like feeling like i’ll always have to harm my body in some way to feel okay. but i’m not sure what else will help me, cus this is all i’ve ever known how to do. does anyone know what i mean?
I know what you mean..but congratulations on making it so long without harming! That’s so great. However, it’s not good that you’re still hurting yourself in another way.. even if you can’t see the external damage. I want you to be able to find something that makes you feel better AND is good for you. That’s what we all deserve
I know exactly what you mean. I, too, have not hurt myself for about a month and it feels great. For years, though, I switched off between self injury and eating disorder behaviors. When I wasn’t doing one, I was doing the other. I found that I was using them to avoid or hide from my internal pain and issues. Now I am dealing with both problems, my self injury and my eating disorder. I am staying safe and following a food plan. I am so much more in touch with my feelings. I’m proving I can sit with my feelings and be OK. I hope that you, whatever your struggle, can do the same. I believe in you.
I totally agree. I want to stop but wonder what will fill my needs. I have also had food issues in the past and once I tried to stop and found other ways to injure. That was an easy way without people finding out. We all need to stop but in a healthy way. We cannot replace it with another obsession or something else that harms us. Lets hang in there and hope we can stop
thanks for the kind words guys,each day is a struggle but i’m working on it. hang in there and good luck to you too!