Since first coming here, I’ve done better. I’ve only slipped backwards one night. I found someone to talk to but I think that I might be crossing lines. Right now, I feel bad about certain things. I want to grab my tool but I know that I shouldn’t. Why do we have to have a heart for? To make things worse, I started to open up some. I should have bottled up everything like I’ve done for years…….
I would write how I’m feeling right now, but it just doesn’t matter anymore. I need to talk but I doubt that wlll happen.I’m just going to flip the coin of fate and let it decide…..
Never keep things bottled up, it is good that you are letting som things out keep talking about your problems and if tha person feels like your stepping over the line im sure they will tell you. Your feelings do matter you matter you need to reeber that. We are all her fr you and im here to i no im a stranger but ive learned the best advice cmesfrom omeone you dont know. Keep staying strong. You ill make it.
I know that I shouldn’t but if I do, I can’t get hurt. No one can use what they know about me against me. No one can use my heart to get even with me for anything. I wouldn’t have to worry about losing anyone again.
I have that same problem where i feel like if people no too much about me they will use it against me and try and hurt me but you just have to find the right person to talk to. And its scary trusting people because you never no what they will do but thatsy you dint jump right in to telling them everything. Get to no them beckme friends then whhn you think you can trust them nd you no they wont hurt you let it out. Trust is on of my issues i striggl with i keep thinking my best friend will tell all my business but i she hasnt and its been tgree years since shes known about me and my SI? im happy i found her and tikdher but e bcaefrinds first. And if you dont feel like telling a friend then we here on S.A.F.E. will listen and we understand. But dont hold it in because one day you will break and all ur emotions will cme running out and thats when itll be the worse. Its better to get what your feeling out now and handling it now tha later. losing people is hard, i hate losing peiple that come into my life but it happend and you eventually get over it.
I’ve lost friends before and I know that it will happen again. i can’t stop that from happening. It’s the ones that I care about and the ones that I love that hurts the most. Those are the ones that hurt the most.
I found someone to talk to but I feel that I pushed her away. I guess that it’s better to be alone then to end up hurting two people. Especially when one of them is innocent.
Yes i understand what you mean about losing the ones you care about and thats even worse to but the pain eventuall goes away. Its never good to be alone espcially when your hurting. When your hurting you need people aroun you so that you wont hurt youself. Have you considered creating circle of people? I have like three people i talk to just incase one of them isnot there or i feel like they are overwhelmed and need a break from me. But i understand you and am here to talk to nothing you say or feel will bother me. Ive seen nd heard alot. Just no that your not aone and you shouldnt want to be ali either.
I’m glad that you have a circle of friends to talk to. Right now, I only really have one person and I think that I’m overwhelming her. i don’t mean to but she’s so helping to me. I can actually talk to her about almost everything and I’m not worried about her judging me about SI.
Thats good and thats what you need right now somone who will listen and that you feel safe with. I think the reason you might be feeling lik your overwhelming her because your not used to talking about your poblems so it feels goo to get it out but also like your saing way to much to fast. But im sure that the girl you are talking to is mot overwhelmed. I shes not judging you and ia there for you that mus mean shes fine with you sharing your problems because she wants to help you. And if your feeling like thht ask her if its to muc for her. Im shore she will tellyou weather or not its to much to handle. She hasnt stopped being there yet has she? So thht must mean he cares nd wants to help. I dont mo if im making sense or helping you at all. But i no if you keep talking nd get your feelings out youll feel better.
It makes sense and it is helping. She probably understands more about what I’m going through then I’ve told her. She’s very caring. Welve been trying to help each other out as much as we can when we can.
See thats really good it works both ways then. Your helping her and shes helping you and as long as your both getting it out then things will start to look up. Im really happy you found someone to help you out with your situation. And im happy i helped i not alot then a little 🙂
A little help is better then no help at all.
I agree. I wish you all the luck. And stay strong. We all fall but if you have the strentgh to get back up then youllmake it.
I’m trying.