i dont know how to stop it yesterday i didnt SI but today i want to so bad i havent got out of bed because i know once i walk to the bathroom it will happen i will give into these feelings of need, its the only time i feel in control of anything, i feel like i had a mental break this week an will never recover its been so long an then i give in an now i cant stop…. i feel like nobody understands my bestfriend knows an she is always trying to make me promise to stop but its not that simple i cant i dont want to hurt her or anyone but she just doesnt understand… i am sorry i just need to vent….