I attempted to SI earlier. I just hate it. I cried second period because I had got in trouble for an attitude and everything boiled over. My boyfriend gets mas at me all the time, and I am waiting till next Monday to break up with him, so I might actually have a hold on reality. Tomorrow I can escape though. I plan on telling her about the scars, how they have plagued my thoughts. I just hope I can get through tonight without breaking. I hugged my dog for a few minuets. I feel like crying. Maybe someday, I will learn to be self reliant,  and I will get past this, what will it take to learn?