I don’t think…no I KNOW its not normal to feel the way I feel. I’m never happy; I am either “ok” or “sad” there is no in between for me. I been like this for years and its getting harder for me to keep it under control. All this time I have been fighting myself BY MYSELF and its so difficult. I keep telling myself that I am going to be ok but I really don’t know if I am. Its been 11 years (and counting) that I have been trying to keep the lock tight on the “dark side of my closet” which is really my head but I just dont known…I feel like I am fighting a loosing battle. The question is when will I give up my fight and just let the darkness take me over or do I just keep trying to figure out how to overcome??? I need to remind myself that I put in 11 years of fighting. I can’t, I just CAN’T give up yet!!!!
I think you should keep fighting. Like you said its just one of those days which means itll pass. Dont give up on yourself because uve worked very hard. Stay strong!
Everyone goes through depression at least one point in their life so its completely normal to feel the way you feel; lost, confused, hurt, lonely ect. It may seem like it gets harder and maybe it does but never give up. Remind yourself someone loves you. They do. You may not be able to tell or see it right away but its true. Remember that no matter what the circumstances are around you, YOU acn decide for yourself how you choose to react to it. No one is in complete charge of you but YOU! 11 years girly is a LOOONGG time. Don’t throw it all away for nothing! Find someone you can confide in whether it be parent, friend, or any adult that will listen and most importantly not judge you. You are strong enough to overcome what ever you may be going through. It may seem like you can’t, but persevere and I promise you will see the brighter side 🙂 We are here for you! Good luck! 🙂
Thank you guys for you support,I don’t really get that where I’m at but its nice to know that there is someone out there willing to listen to me vent.