It’s been almost a year since the first time I self injured. The whole reason it happened was just because I was trying to protect someone. Instead I ended up breaking up a relationship. Now, the guy is still not over the girl and keeps bringing it up, how it’s “been a year” and it makes me feel guilty because I know it’s my fault. On top of that, my really close guy friend’s girlfriend (ex as of 2 days ago) has been away for a while. Just as friends, me and him went to Main Event. She found out, and got really mad at me. I’m kind of scared, because she’s sort of unstable. My friend said that I helped him get the courage to break up with her, because he had been wanting to, but now I’m even more scared. She’s really upset about it, and I don’t know how she’ll handle it. I feel like if she does anything to herself, it will be my fault. Also, my best friend has become really rude and snobbish lately, and acting like she’s so much better than me, and my best guy friend is mad at me too. I feel like I don’t really have anyone anymore, and I’m under a lot of pressure, trying to get a good class rank, along with choir, debate, tennis, and softball. I self injured for the first time since November, and I don’t know why I keep doing it, because I hate myself afterwards. It just feels right at the time. And I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ll have these episodes of depression, like yesterday, but today I felt fine and happy. So I don’t think I’m depressed but I don’t know what it is. I need help.