I haven’t been here in a while. In almost 7 months. I haven’t self injured j. That long either. I really don’t know how I got this far. I really don’t. Everdau is still a struggle. Will there ever be a time where there’s not? That’s unknown to me at the moment, but I do know that if I could make it through this much, then I can go even longer.

I’m not cured yet. I never even told my parents. I dont know if I ever will be able to. But I do know that there are other ways to express your pain. I can’t imagine going back to day one and having to count 7 more months, sothat’s what is now keeping me going. Hopefully my resistance will continue.