alrighty, well i’m basically here asking for advice from anyone, since all of you reading this have probably either been through what im dealing with or are curently dealing with it too…

i’ve had problems with s.i. since 6th grade, i’m a sophmore now. i’ve been doing it on and off for the past 4 years but when i am doing it, i have literally no self control. i hate it and find it to be so disgusting, i already have too many flaws with my appearance that i obsess over and the scars don’t help, usually i’ll only wear clothes that cover them because i cant stand what my body looks like. i know, i’m messed up. to tell the truth, i’m not even sure why i do it any more. i had lots of problems when i started, but now i only have to deal with what i think are normal teenage stresses. i feel ashamed/lonely/depressed/angry every day, usually because i can never stop thinking about past failures or regrets. i have extreme social anxiety and while i do have friends, i don’t feel comfortable around them or even my family. and i have a really difficult time talking to new people. i injure in more than one way and have mostly been able to keep it a secret. i binge eat a lot, i haven’t really gained weight but i feel disgusted with myself anyway. i hate myself for being selfish and feel as if i’m not only disappointing God but everyone around me as well. do i sound totally crazy, or is there any of who can relate to any of this? sorry if its confusing.