I am in the same room, isolated and sick and hopeless as I was 7 months ago. I’m trying so hard to remember its a process and to not give up. Alcohol and self injury I feel like I am defeated by the two. Tonight is the worst. The most self destructive and sad and hopeless. There is some self preservation in me; it’s such a strange feeling to be in this state of mine yet have all these tools and feeling incapable of using them. I feel it’s too late, I’m too far gone. I wil alWas be crazy and unstable…
I need to gather strength to fight and pull myself it.
My girlfriend said She is leaving me to move to Oklahoma in the spring. Consequences. I need some extra help now.
Tomorrow is always a new day, a fresh start, a clean slate. You worked so hard to get here, a relapse is normal, its human. Were all plain and simple human. Dont give up. Your not alone, tonight I share the same thoughts you do, but know that tomorrow can be anything you want it to be. Maybe your GF moving is the fresh start you need? It may be a blessing or a curse but hurting yourself now over it now wont help anything. If you ever want to talk perfectlyhidden445@gmail.com
Stay strong and good luck, your a strong individaul based on all your last posts, let this be a speed bump, we all hate them, but life goes on <3