It has been a very long time since I’ve written on here. I havent SIed for about 9.5 months now and it feels great. My life is no longer ruled by that constant urge. About a year ago when I was at my darkest time, I never would have thought I could have gotten to the point I’m at now. I couldn’t see how life could improve and I wouldn’t need to SI. It wasn’t just kicking a habit, it was curing a full-blown addiction. And it was not easy. But somehow, I’ve been clean for 9.5 months. I just want to say tell everyone that is struggling with this addiction that it really does get better. It is not easy to overcome, but once you do, your life is filled with so much more happiness. To be honest, I didn’t want to stop. I didn’t know what I would turn into if i stopped. I used to think that SI’ing made me feel better, but it was only making me worse. It got harder before it got better. But after getting over it, I realize how much damage I was doing to myself. Today, I don’t see my scars as dark reminders of my rough past, I see them of marks of how far I have come and every challenge I have overcome. And it is a wonderful feeling to be able to see it that way. My life has turned around from stopping SI’ing, and I really hope that everyone suffering from SI’ing is able to see life the way I now see it. 🙂