I have been self injuring myslef ever since the 6th grade. That was the year my best friend moved away and I made a terrible mistake that made people dislike me. That is when it started. It started as a way vice. I didn’t know how to heal my pain so I S.I. instead. I am in the 8th grade now and it has almost become in addiction. I don’t know how to stop and am so afraid. I seem like a very happy, lovable 13 year old girl, but I have so much pain and angered bottled up inside of me that it seems to be easier to just S.I. I am desperately seeking a way to stop.
First of all, I’m impressed you are so determined to stop your S.I. It’s a big step. As far as bottled up anger and pain and..everything, so many feelings, I.know how that goes. I struggle with the same thing. If those bottled up.feelings are a factor in making you want to S.I., then you have to get them out another way. Find some way to get it out. Talking can help. If you don’t have anyone to talk to, then blot about your feelings here or in a journal. Write every day. If that doesn’t help then find something that makes you feel better. Whether it’s listening to music or anything that makes you happy.. just get some of the hurt out.
Hope it helps and gets easier. You CAN stop this.
I started S.I. when I was about your age. It can be harder than anyone could imagine. I would reccomend to find another way to get your anger out, run on a treadmill or talk with your friends. If your like me and you have lost the friends you really talk to then write out all your feelings all the time! online, in a journal, on napkins, little notes.
the best advice I could give you though is to get rid of your negative thoughts. when you catch yourself thinking negativly say something positive outloud. It sounds silly, but sometimes it can help. It’s mostly about building positive thought habbits and breaking the old habbits.