I disapoinnt many people.. i hurt them too. I dnt want to at all… i never trully want to inflict emotional or physical pain on anyone… well.. of course not to the people tht shudnt be inflicted with pain.. my bullies and such, i just grow this strong, strong hate..i actually feel like one of those kids tht kill all the kids at their akool..but i found self xontrol for tht.. and i realize.. y ahud i hate THEM… i see why tjey wud make fun of me… i dnt blame them.. but anyways.. i disapoint my parents.. and i know tht they are disgusted by me.. they dnt show it of course.. well one time my dad did..but my mom is wonderful. Shes a FANTASTIC mom.. i mean it. I know she loves me, an di love her in return. I kbow tht my friends get frustrated.. i knpw they question to themselves: why r they my friends. Everyone questions themselves abou tme.. at least once. I know they do, because we are hu,ans, an dits in our nature, is it not? But i hate hurting my mom so much
about my SI. I want to stop hurting her. But i just cant help myself.. i have no self control. And everyday i lose myself ove rstupid or big things. I just.. dnt no anymore.. im confused… i wan tto stop hurting those tht i love and tht do love me.. i wan tthe hurting them to stop by starting the depression and SI to disapear.. but how do i even start.. ive tried everything imaginable.. i have two counclers.. i have a mom tht love sme, and i can trust her on plenty of thongs such as my SI. There are many other things i jave tried to help mee with these problems im experoencing.. i might be taking medicine soon. But its up to my mom whether or not she sready for jer 13 u rold daughter to take pills..but othe rthan tht..nothingbhaa worked.. please comment with ur opinions. I’ dreally like to hear them.
Well, his do you feel about taking pills? Sometimes it can help, sometimes it makes it worse. Don’t get your hopes up if you try them and they don’t work out. But it may be worth a try if your mom is willing. Okay. Now for the other stuff. Feeling bad about hurting yourself and therefore those around you is natural. But it’s a vicious cycle you have to get out of. I know, I know, that’s what you’re trying to do. So.make a list of everything good in your life. About support and family and trust and friends and even random things that aren’t about SI. Heck, if you love rolling around in the grass, but grass on the list. Haha but seriously. And then make a list of bad things. Bad feelings, bad thoughts, everything. Try to make a goal of adding more and more good things to the good list and crossing out things kn the bad list. It sounds kind of Dorothy, but it helps. Keep them up in your room for inspiration and just take it day by day. Another thing that might help is writing in a journal. Just write everything. Everyday. Then one day your entries will be better and an inspiration to others. You’ll be able to look at it years from now and see what you’ve overcome.
I hope that helps
Thanks a bunch.. i mean it. Ill try it out
I really hope it helps.
I hope so too lolz. But im hoping.. somewat faith too heh.
Yeah haha. Faith always helps