I’ve had a really rough day today.i self injured. I got really overwhelmed at work. I got very angry. I don’t know what to do with anger. I immediately gave into that urge. I didn’t think about it, I just acted. Once I opened that door it was very hard to close it for the day. I’m still struggling to keep my head on straight and not do it again tonight. I got called in to talk to my boss today, in a professional way she told me all the things I do wrong. I got this assistant manager position right before I left for treatment and I was too intoxicated to remember all he material I learned now. I broke down, as soon as I opened my mouth to speak I lost it. I cried and cried And I told her I can’t handle it, I’m not capable, please take the position away, I don’t want it, I told her I didn’t expect my life to be so different when I go back from rehab. She said I can do it but I dont think so. I can’t handle anything anymore. I want to go back to how I was. I’m struggling today, badly. I need help tonight. I’ve called people and everyone is busy I guess.