i’m new to this site but not SI. i have been free for almost two months but i’m not sure if it’s in the past for good or not. I just recently read a book about self injury and it made me for some reason want to act. My mother found out about my SI and flipped out on me. She will randomly say things about me “getting help” like talking to a shrink or going to some facility. i have talked to a mentor and a few friends. they’re all helping me but i do not feel the need to speak with a shrink or someone of the sort. i’m basically afraid of them and not sure how to react. i feel extremely alone in this situation because whichever way i lean someone’s getting hurt. :/
I have been the same way. Everytime I read something about self harm, I always want to act on it. It’s just something there in my mind that tells me it’s ok to do. I would talk about doing it to my mom and the only thing that would come out of her mouth would be that I’m doing it all for attenetion. So everytime I go to do it there is always that thought in my mind that I’m always doing it for attention. But truly it’s just me having things that are on my mind that I don’t really talk about.
silentdoubt: Reading about self injury used to be extermely triggering to me. It still is at times. If I start feeling like that I put the book down, turn the movie off, shut the computer down,change the song…whatever the situation is. Just for the record, talking with a therapist is one of the most healing things I’ve ever done. It’s not always easy, sometimes it’s hard to open up and be vulnerable, but the results have been very well worth it for me. From what you wrote it sounds like people in your life really care about your well being. If you have the oppurtunity to see a counselor I’d encourage it =)
I didn’t mean act in that way. Sorry my wording was off. I meant act against the injuring. I used to want to injure everytime a read a book about it but that stopped a month ago.