i am also very new here. and to this type of thing. i have recently S.I.-ed and i’m very mad at myself. i can’t figure out what my trigger is. it’s probably stress from school because i also expect too much of myself. i strive so hard for straight As and get obsessive about getting them. but this has worn me down and i feel unmotivated to do anything productive. i’ve just felt bad for so long, it’s getting exhausting. i need a break and S.I. has been my only outlet. i’m too scared to tell my mom because i don’t want to disappoint her and i don’t want to get a therapist or anything. i want to be stronger than that. i want to be able to help myself.