I’ve never taked about this with anyone, but i feel like it’s time to share it.
So I’ve been depressed for a very long time- about 2 years- and I’ve been SI. I’ve tried to stop, but it’s so hard..It’s like everytime i feel a little better, something bad happens. I have an abusive father, who gets drunk pretty much every night and when he gets drunk, he likes to be abusive and shout and just make everyone suffer. And I’ve been trying to ignore that , because I know that there are people who have it much worse, but It’s just so hard… My father breaks my heart every day and all I’ve ever wanted was for him to stop- I don’t want him to love me or care about me, I just want to be left alone.
I also have an eating disorder and that’s not helping either. It’s like I can’t do anything, because I’m depressed and I don’t know how to help myself. I don’t have friends anymore- I’ve pushed everyone away. I drink too much, I take drugs, I have food issues and injure myself and I don’t see how I’m ever getting out of this dark place. There’s just nowhere to go to.
Hi, sounds like you are feeling really alone and lost at the moment. So glad you reached out to this website – sometimes it can really help to know there are others out there who feel like you do. But at the same time, pain is a personal thing and your situation sounds really tough. I just wish I could say something comforting that would make you smile and see there is some hope. Maybe the best I can do is tell you that when I have felt as low as you do, it has always got better… life is like the weather – it always changes, so if you wait long enough, the sun will come out. You have to trust the universe and accept where you are right now. I was hospitalised five times last year and told I was going to be a schizophrenic for the rest of my life. But with the help of many, many people who crossed my path, now I am working, making a life, feeling happier… just hang in there. Try to find someone to talk to – a friend, counsellor, trusted person, anyone! I know its really hard, but reaching out is the best thing you can do… my thoughts are with you.
u sound like been thru alot im 23 and ive injuring since 15 off n on i no bout drinking thng im alcholic it does get better take day by day if need talk write me my name amber u just seem like u could use frnd..