I’ve never taked about this with anyone, but i feel like it’s time to share it.
So I’ve been depressed for a very long time- about  2 years- and I’ve been SI. I’ve tried to stop, but it’s so hard..It’s like everytime i feel a little better, something bad happens. I have an abusive father, who gets drunk pretty much every night and when he gets drunk, he likes to be abusive and shout and just make everyone suffer. And I’ve been trying to ignore that , because I know that there are people who have it much worse, but It’s just so hard… My father breaks my heart every day and all I’ve ever wanted was for him to stop- I don’t want him to love me or care about me, I just want to be left alone.
I also have an eating disorder and that’s not helping either. It’s like I can’t do anything, because I’m depressed and I don’t know how to help myself. I don’t have friends anymore- I’ve pushed everyone away. I drink too much, I take drugs, I have food issues and injure myself  and I don’t see how I’m ever getting out of this dark place. There’s just nowhere to go to.