honestly i just can’t take anything anymore. i don’t like the way i look, i always feel horrible, i don’t want to just fake it anymore. i’m ready to s.i again and i honestly don’t care if break the 4 and a half months. the only thing holding me back is people seeing and my mom seeing, because she checks whenever she gets the chance. i mean, it feels right when i’m doing it but afterwards i regret it, which makes me hate myself and want to do it again. basically it’s a cycle and i hate it, so much. everyday i have to deal with looking in the mirror and not being satisfied with what i see. pointing out all my flaws till i can’t find anymore, but i eventually find them the next day, and the next, and the next. i’m scared, i really am… i don’t want it to go as far as s.i. i think about doing it, every.single.day. and i don’t think anyone knows what that feels like. and yesterday a guy bullied me, i’ve been bullied in like elementary school but yesterday, the things he said. i can’t even go in detail because they’re too inappropriate to post on here. this i what i have to go through, every day. i hate it so much.. i’ll never be good enough for anyone.
i know how you feel but all you have to do is say to yourself that you are good enough….it usually works
I know exactly what you mean. It almost seems like I’m speaking directly through you. You just need to stay strong and find something in yourself to believe in. Make sure you talk to someone, a close friend or relative. Someone who you feel comfortable talking to. Know that people out there love you and care about you. Including me, and I don’t even know you. I send the little traces of hope, love, and strength thatci have left and send them to you. Stay strong <3