My partner just told me that I am always either being mean to her or am angry with her. I did not realize that this was going on, but it hurt a lot.
My form of SI is not injuring anymore. I lost that urge only last year (though I did give it a try a few weeks ago). But now, when triggered, I abuse my medication with alcohol. It’s a deadly combination, but I’ve learned to manage it. I don’t like it though. It makes me feel less of myself. Especially because I have a 10 month old son across the hall. I don’t do it often, but once a month is once too many.
My Partner injures and abuses drugs at times. I would like to leave, but I am afraid of hurting her and being alone. More worried about the former than the latter. I have pretty much shut down and can feel myself slipping.
I need help!!! I’m usually optimistic on the outside, but I miss the joy I had on the inside. How can I connect with those around and get a life outside of my girlfirend. I would like to have other friends and there are many opportunities to make some. I would just like to get past the acquaintance phase.
Hi, it sounds like your life is kinda complicated… you have your own feelings and needs to deal with, as well as your partner’s and your son’s. But I guess you have to look after yourself first in the sense that unless you are happy inside, you won’t be much good to those around you. Maybe try to start some activities or hobbies that take you out of the house once a week and enable you to meet some friends, etc. These kinds of things are a really important part of staying well and healthy. Good luck and my thoughts are with you…
Thank you so much for your input. I do need to take care of my needs first. I wasn’t truly happy in the relationship and it took a toll on my emotions. I think that it would be best if I dated someone who is just as positive as I am when I’m not depressed. This will make not falling into self desructive behavior much easier. Now that my trigger (my ex-girlfriend) is no longer apart mof my life, I may need to find a new support group.