I didn’t go through with any of the self detructive thoughts I was having. Nothing has changed, still awaiting test results for my Mom, still expecting the city to come check the code violations. My friend from treatment relapsed last night. She relapsed hard and fast. She called me late last night in a lot of trouble. There wasn’t anything I could do except listen and talk with her. I didn’t think she was going to make it through the night alive, seriously. She is an older woman with a lot of pain inside. A lot of trauma. She is in the hospital now. I think that’s good. I couldn’t sleep last night. I was worried and feeling helpless in that situation. I know I did everything I could though. I’m glad she is safe for now. I havent self injured since I relapsed with alcohol a few weeks ago. It’s been a struggle lately though. Before, I would so not have been able to deal with anything going on in my life right now. I’m not doing great, but I’m not hanging on by a thread either. That shows me I really am changing for the better.