My boyfriend broke up with me, because I opened up to him about my past. about why I couldn’t have him to close to me sometimes and why after 4 months I could barely kiss him. He dumped me, then said he was so heart broken to all his friends. He was the reason why I stopped injuring. Why I stopped everything. So I could be strong like him, be strong and show him I was good enough… Its hard being strong still,  after the reason why left me like everyone else. deemed me not good enough like the rest of them and left me for someone else. it seems pitiful and pathetic to me now, but it doesnt take the hurt away… for the first time in 2 months, I injured and binged.  I dug my grave deep this time. its hard to stop….

What do I do?

what do I do now that my strength is gone?