My support left me, its hard to resist and the pressure to be everything I wont ever be is harder than ever. A perfect older sister, the angel little sister, the parents that see you only for your flaws, the boyfriend that dumped you because you were damaged goods, the best friend that is too busy with her own boyfriend. I live in a house full of people, i’m constantly surrounded by crowds, yet i’ve never felt so alone… I’m not sure how to move on from here. I slipped and now I cant get back to my area of gray where I was recovering.