i’ve thought about Self-Injuring the whole day,the reason being is because i feel so alone. i know, it’s a bad reason and i should just get over it. no one understands though, how hard it is to see everyone with someone so happy and you, just there, alone. when i talk to other people they’re so happy and everything because they have someone to call their own. i mean, i don’t even have a crush on anyone. i kind of want to just find someone and force myself to like them because i’ve kind of about had it. going on the Internet almost never helps, all i do is go on social networking websites and see more happy people in relationships that i know i’ll never have until forever. i don’t even care if it’s a new friend anymore, i just want someone to talk to and have them understand me and not judge me because i SI or anything. i just don’t like this feeling of being alone, especially when i have low self-esteem. it eats away at me.. every second, of everyday. i get the urge to SI, it’s so strong, i start looking for something to just SI, but then i stop. afterwards i’m happy i didn’t do it but sad i didn’t at the same time. sometimes i just feel like crying until i can’t stop anymore.. but for some reason, i can’t. i want to cry, i want to let it all out. i just really don’t have anyone to talk to about this stuff and i hate it. so, please.. try and comment? just some advice..?
It’s easy to think that you are alone in the world because of how you are thinking/feeling. I feel the exact same as you, it’s hard to see everyone so happy around you. Maybe it would be good for you to disable your social networking for awhile so that you don’t have the temptation to look. I disabled mine for two months before I could go back on again. You are not alone. Some of the same feelings you expressed, I have the exact same ones. There is hope though – instead of SI, do something else that you like that makes you happy.
Viv, I know exactly how you feel. I feel like that every day. The only difference is….i do like someone…but its the wrong someone. Which makes it even harder for me. You know you can talk to me at anytime. I live in mexico so i cant text you. But i have a blackberry, so i get youre emails as soon as you send them. I actually need to talk to you….email me? Bichasala8@hotmail.com