The blog changed. I am adverse to change anywhere I go for stability but it doesn’t have the categories anymore and it doesn’t match the rest of the site. All of that brings up anxiety in me. I have been really triggered and as much I try to focus my mind just pops back to si. The level of stress in my life right now is off the hook. It is really no wonder I feel this way and I’m having a hard time writing it out in the face of the changes. But this is something. It’s really hard.