I have still not relapsed but I keep watching triggering videos… Missing it and wanting to again. I thought it had been longer then 5 months but looking back I guess not. It feels like it has been a year. I keep reminding my self of how hard it was to stop. but at the same time reminding my self of how good it felt. after watching all those videos I feel my self wanting it again. I have not yet. will not. will not. will now not. I will not. I will not si! 🙂 ok back to studying for school. thanks for letting me get that out.