I’ve been struggling with depression sense 4th grade, I am in 10th grade now and it’s still affecting me. I do activities I enjoy like drawing, writing, playing my ukulele, talking to friends, skateboarding, ect. to get my mind off all the pain inside me, but something in me is still eating me up and I don’t know what it is. I get knots in my stomach, my throat feels like it is being held, and my chest feels like it has a billion bricks on it. I dont know what to do anymore. I have tried to injure but I have made so many promises to my friends that I wouldn’t, so I can’t exactly, even though I am in the need for it.
So this is where I need advice.
Should I get depressants or should I just keep dealing with it?

Also, I don’t want to go to a counsoler because I hate talking about it, expecially to someone I don’t know.
So back to the question, should I or not?