It’s been three years and I still can’t stop the self mutilation. Nothing has ever helped me. I have been through therapy, hospitalizations, group therapy and self-harm, etc, but nothing seems to help me. I am a broken soul for life. I can’t stop anymore. I need help, but I don’t know how to get it anymore. Nothing has worked, so why should I bother with anything else. Not to long ago I had a friend die, she was like a sister to me, all my mom and I do is fight over my problems. All I want to do is run away and never return. All my friends won’t talk to me much anymore because of my self mutilation problems, and now my own boyfriend has given  up on my. All I want to do is give up myself. I can’t handle all the pressure that people are putting on my to just completely stop. I am a human just like them, but the only difference is I am a constant ship wreck, and nothing can fix that. I am slowly losing faith, hope, and trust in myself. It’s almost completely gone. I am reminded everyday how much I make everyone miserable, which only hurts more. All I want is for someone to understand me and not judge me, or classify me by how much I screw up for them. My mom constantly uses my weakness of self injuring against me now. I don’t now how much more I can take. I am ready to just leave this home and go to a place where no one can find me. I am done.