so two weeks ago i started school (again) after i got expelled….. i was just sooo happy in my old school. today all i want to do is cry and SH. ive been here two weeks, and already there are a few girls who just looove to make me sad. they keep telling people how stupideverything i say is. i know thats what first graders do, but it really affects me.

i am going to therpy again….i actually like her very much. she kinda knows what im going through. its her job though. i would like to have someone to talk to, but not because my dad pays them to listen to me, but because they care about me and want me to get better. i used to tell all this to one of my friends…but i know she doesnt understand me, and i know she cares, but she doesnt know how to hlp me, and i know that frustrates me. i want to die. i know i am a coward, and that people think i say it for attention, because if i really did want to die, i would have done it. i mean i guess theyre right, im scared. i dont know what will happen afterwards…i just hope its better. its a sin though….that scares me….my brither doesnttalk to me…im gonna share a room with him this weekend because we´re going on vacation…..but im scared he’ll be all mean and stuff….dads yelling so i got to go……

wish me luck