I need to stop procrastinating. I knew I had all this homework due next week. BUt I waitned until today to do it all. Now IM stressed out. IM bored. I Dont want to attempt this. I just want to be lazy and not do anything. I already skipped school today. I hate myself for being like this. For doing this. I cant make myself go to school on a regualr basis. I get tired. I get bored. I know its pointless because the teacher will stand there, talk and I wont listen to any of it. Ill be distracted and drawing or on my phone. I try not to do this but I always end up being the person who never shows up. I want to si. I woke up wanting to si. I know I shouldnt. I just dont know how long Ill hold off today. Its just what I wanted to do. I woke up and thought, oh I want to si today. I hope I can hold off. I hope I can keep busy with enough school work to be ok without it. Considering ive been at work since ten and have only only one assignment i feel like im failing at my task. But Idk. Im being lazy and I hate myself for it. But no si yet. hopefully the night will go on better than the day as so far.