I just dont know what to do.

Me and my boyfriend Christian broke up about a week ago. At the time I was pretty sure I loved him. But after this I’m not even sure love exists anymore. He didnt even have the guts to tell me himself, he told my friends instead. And after seven months of dating he just decided that; ‘He doesnt love me anymore. I’m mean, and unoutgoing. and that he’s going to brake up with me soon.’ I ended up confronting him about it and broke things off. It hurt me. And I hate the fact that he was indifferent about it.

I’m still so confused by it and the first few days I was way depressed and I self- abused again. I’d been doing so well, I hadn’t done anything in about four months. And JUST when everything started to come back together for me it all fell.

I don’t know where I’m supposed to go from here. And I really need to find more ways to help myself other than hurting. I’m just so lost and confused. I know it’ll get better eventually. But I want it to get better NOW. Like any person would. I know everyone goes through this stuff. But its so hard.I’m only a freshman and I knew this would happen to us eventually. All our memories together are just haunting me now.

But I guess forever isn’t as long as it used to be, huh?