I have been a victim to SI for almost 6 years… I struggle with it frequently, even to this day. 2 years ago, I routinely went to therapy for about a year only to find it did not help. I am still of anti depressants.
Because I have seeked help and am ‘controlled’ chemically, my parents and friends don’t know what else to do.
I think of SI nearly everyday and every once in a while I cannot reject the want any longer..
I am tired of feeling this weight….
Please hang in there. Take it one day at a time. Try another therapist. It is ok to keep looking for one that works. Reaching out is a good sign. Hold on to all of your successes. You are not alone!