I cant do this! I havent SIed in two weeks! I cant keep my feellngs bottled up anymore! Right now im fighting the urge……i dont think i will be able to stop myself! I cant stop crying….im already behind in school….jelousy is killing me…..i cant do this anymore! I just cant! I have to give up! I need to SI! Its a part of me now! Its my reallity! People will have to live with it!! I dont know how to live WITHOUT it anymore! I thought i would be able to get better, but i cant! I need help, but i wont get it from my parents…..i dont know what to do