lately i’ve been getting an urge to SI. i ignore it but it comes back. it always comes back stronger and im scared that one day i’ll give in. my parents and sister found out that i SI and they never got me help. they never knew that it was this serious,that i would get urges and that i might do it again. they always check me but you can injure in so many other places. that last time i injured was almost 2 months ago. i don’t want to self injure again but it might get to the point where it’s gonna be the only thing i can turn to for help. i don’t want to keep living this way..always feeling like i might SI when i get the chance because i don’t wanna do it anymore,i really don’t. i want to be a normal 14 year old girl. i don’t want to worry about people finding out i SI. i don’t want that urge anymore.
I want to tell you that I’m only weeks away from being a year clean and I know exactly how you feel on every single level. To this day I have urges, but only because I have this feeling of not being ready to let go of something that was such a comfort in my life. But I always have to remind myself that I’ve gotten this far and I would be devastated to have to go back to day one. I can’t even imagine, I have nightmares about it. So I want to leave you with this, your family are probably trying to do the best they can because they were never taught how to help their child who wants to hurt themselves. They’re trying and that’s all that counts. But the help has to come from within yourself because in the end, the only person that will always be there for you is YOU. It took mw a long time to realize that. As soon as you do, this will get easier and it does. 🙂 If you ever need anyone to talk to:: jeynann@yahoo.com
Look, im 14 too….turning 15 on sunday actually….ive SIed for about a year and a half….and its frustrating, beacuse most of the times its just an urge….i dont have much to say to you since im also struggling….but if you need someone to talk to….well i think i need someone who is going through the same…email me.. Bichasala8@hotmail.com.