i just can’t maintain i have been in dbt 4 times and its just more comforting to sh then it is to do that stuff. my husband is sick of me so so so sick of me the more angry he gets with me the more i sh i HATE MYSELF SO MUCH I C AN’T STAND IT I HAVE BEEN DOING THIS FOR OVER 15 YEARS THERE IS NO WHERE EVEN ON A BOARD TO BE SAFE! I DON’T CARE MUCH ANYMORE BUT APPARENTELY ENUF TO WRITE HERE BUT DOUBT I GET AN ANSWER IT SEEMS MOST DON’T O WELL WHATS TEH USE