Everytime I say or do anything… I compare myself to my best friend. She seems so perfect, and skinny, and just… she dealt with SI too, just like me. Sometimes I wonder if that is what influenced me to start.

I can never let myself wonder about that, because I know she would never forgive herself if that was the case.

I just want to be me for once, to feel as if I can be me without being judged. I’m just sick of feeling like an actress, being told my role. I want to be free.