I’ve missed this blog. I just saw pictures of my little sisters wedding that I missed a couple weeks ago because I was in rehab. I can’t describe the feeling when I saw them. This is the biggest trigger I’ve had in almost a month. At the treatment center I can just walk any tools to the office and turn them in, at home at the moment and that isn’t an option. The only thing stopping me is if anyone noctices back there then I wont get out soon and I’ll have to sign contracts things or maybe get discharged. I just typed that last sentence and realized something else must be stopping me because I could easily hide it…maybe what’s stopping me is me and its because I seriously don’t want to self injure.